Saturday, September 13, 2014

Karma, Forgiveness, and Ho’oponopono

Blank name badge was found: HERE
I started to rouse this morning after reading something in a dream that made me go "Hmmm" and think "What did I just read?" My thinking monkey brain took over and I started thinking about what I was just shown. At the tail end of a dream I saw a name badges that are worn on shirts of employees sometimes so you can identify them. Sometimes they tell us if someone is a manager or an assistant manager. On this badge I saw a number "1". On a separate form I read what the "1" indicated.

It read:

Class 1: I don't do karma/rebirth

So, yeah, that one little sentence woke me from my slumber because it got me thinking. I believe my higher self was cluing me into the fact that that sentence is in my job description here on Earth in this now moment. It was a pretty amazing piece of information to be given considering that I have been thinking I need to do past life regression. Hahahaha I don't need to do any regressions because I am Class 1. I don't do karma/rebirth. 

I know I came here for a very specific mission and I think I am starting to understand more and more what that mission entails every day. Lately I have been reading two of Dolores Cannon's books and a couple of Brian L. Weiss' books. I have had so many "aha" moments where things are finally starting to make sense to me.

When Lina, my guardian angel, told me (through Jeannie Barnes) to start with reading Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian L. Weiss, she actually said I didn't necessarily need to do past life work. She said to just read that book and it will lead me in the direction I need to go and, so far, it really has. It has been amazing! I suppose not everyone would get as much out of these books as I have because we aren't all on the same path or the same exact mission, but I highly recommend both authors for the curious and open minded people who haven't already read them yet.

Let's talk about karma. I had no idea why I have had such disdain for the idea of karma...but now I do. None of us have to do karma. We choose to and, in doing so, get stuck on an endless cycle of death and rebirth trying to get in all the lessons we can while also paying everyone back. I think we are at a point now where past lives really don't matter as much anymore. I think karma is a choice. All we have to do to release ourselves and others is simply to love and forgive. Forget about asking some outside person/deity (Jesus/God) to forgive you. Each one of us ARE a perfect facet of Source/God. Just forgive others. Forgive yourself. Forgive. Forgive and love and you release the karma and you simultaneously heal all of the lives you might have had.

Instead of holding onto anger or hurts toward others or ourselves, just forgive and let go. If you feel moved to apologize to someone, then do it...but then forgive yourself too because sometimes it is ourselves we are last to forgive.

It is like getting pulled over by a cop for speeding and instead of the cop giving them a ticket, he smiles and says, "I forgive you," and sends them on their way. Now that is not to say if you are the one being forgiven you should drive off and keep speeding. We have to try to be the best that we can be and the "Golden Rule" still rings true. Treat others the way you would want them to treat you. is the big BUT...for fuck's sake, treat yourself as well as we treat others! Some us are HORRIBLE to ourselves. We can find all kinds of nice things to say about someone else, but when it comes to ourselves we are so mean to ourselves. Love yourself. Forgive yourself.

A Facebook friend recently reminded me again of Ho’oponopono. Here is the first article I read about it and still love it every time I read it:

In a nutshell, the theory is since we all are actually one and every person you come across in your life is another you and in order to heal them (and yourself) all you have to say is these simple sentences:

  • I Love You
  • Please forgive me
  • I am sorry
  • Thank you
It is basically a similar idea as what I am saying. You don't have to say those exact sentences. It is all about INTENTION. Forgiveness is key. Love is key. Compassion is key. I mean, you can't go in and just say the words or just think the words. You have to REALLY MEAN IT. You have to REALLY FEEL IT. We create our reality with thought and intention.

What will you choose? Will you choose to live a life mired in sticky karma? Or will you choose to live a life of love and letting go? Will you choose to stay on Earth's karmic hamster wheel and keep going around and around in an endless cycle? Or will you choose to step off and explore what other options are just waiting to be explored?

Monday, September 1, 2014

Carol's Quest to Find Her Birth Mother

I have this lovely Australian friend, Carol Carey, who has been searching for her birth mother on the Eastern US coast around the Boston suburbs. She came to the US determined to find her biological mom. She has been diligently doing all she can do to help bring her closer to her bio-mom. She has gone on radio shows and told her story. She has contacted psychics who might be able to pick up anything since she has little to go on. She has been going door to door delivering printed notes in the areas that her bio-mom might have lived to the point that her feet have bled.

This is an article that was written about her:

Carol said in regard to the article, "There is a mistake in this. I have two sons. They were laughingly teasing each other as to which one was referred to."

This is the woman who facilitated Carol's adoption. Her first name is Carol but her last name is not known.
She knew baby Carol's birth mother. Her Alias name is Carol Baker. Her correct last name was Polish or Russian. Carol is correct though.
This is baby Carol and her adoptive parents.

She composed a beautiful letter to her mom and hopefully one day soon her mom will read it and realize what a wonderful daughter she has just waiting to share her love with her.

To My Cherished Birth Mother

I thank you for the life you have given me, my precious Birth Mother.
I acknowledge and am grateful for the sacrifice you made by giving me up to be raised by my parents, Ruth and Ralph Bowers. My mother desired a child more than most can realise and you gave her and myself the opportunity to experience a life as a devoted mother and child in a relationship filled with love.

I am sure you have suffered for this sacrifice. I think giving up a child would be one of the most difficult and heartbreaking experiences a mother can go through.

If possible, I would like to be given a chance to help heal this sorrow by being present in your life in whatever capacity you may desire. I would love to be a real, present, daughter for you, but understand this may not suit you. I would like to extend to you the chance of expanding the love we both already have in our lives with our loved ones. I would especially appreciate the chance to have an extended family and meet any brothers, sisters, nieces, nephews, aunts and uncles that I might have.

Being raised an only child in a distant country like Australia, has isolated me from the experience of an extended family, but the circumstance has shown me how to make make a family of friends.

I am a person who has had an unusual life - full of rich and varied experiences and I would love to share this with my birth family.
I would love to introduce you to my own two wonderful sons. These young men are talented and well rounded individuals, who love their known grandparents very much, but have large hearts to share.

I pray to be given the opportunity to meet you, and get to know you. Although I loved my parents I have somehow always known a chunk of my life was missing, and I wonder if what I may have been feeling was a part of what you were feeling to. I have only in the last six years, been told about you, yet I think I have always known you were out there....

I doubt if either of us would consider ourselves as 'broken'. I doubt that we need 'fixing'. What has happened was meant to happen for some reason.
What I am hoping for is the opening of an opportunity to meet, and the possibility of enriching our lives through this meeting.

I have a heart filled with appreciation, compassion and love and I am enthusiastic to share this with you and my extended birth family, if you can bring yourself to meet me.

My intention is not to harm: I am a sensitive soul, myself. We would, very carefully, with great consideration and sensitivity, embark on this experience together.

Please, let us embrace this opportunity. It may possibly be wonderful.

With all my love,
Your daughter,

If you, or someone you know happens to know people on the East coast, it would mean so much to Carol if you could please spread her story around and hopefully her birth mom or someone who knows her will see her information and be able to get in touch with Carol.  I am crossing my fingers for a happy update to this story.

Be The Change....

Artist: Mario Sanchez Nevado
I have this blogger friend who is pretty amazing and has a lot of wisdom to share with people.  She credits her guides with a lot of what comes out, but I think she is pretty fucking amazing all on her own. 

These are links to her Be The Change series at In My Sacred Space:

"These things make us angry. They make us afraid. How does that serve us? 

I would argue that IS the purpose of these things. They are supposed to make you feel that way. 
It’s telling you that you do not condone these actions. It’s giving you an indicator of who you are.

It’s showing you contrast, which helps you truly appreciate the good things you see in the world, particularly what is around you.

It’s giving you an opportunity to feel empathy for the plight of other human beings.

It’s giving you the opportunity to make a choice – will the anger and fear that you feel be reflected back out into the world through your choices and actions resultant from those feelings, thus continuing the cycle?"

"Emotions are what they are – you feel them. They can be complex and hard to interpret because sometimes we feel SO many emotions at once that may be conflicting and it becomes difficult to sort through them, but they are essentially energy.

It is your beliefs about emotions that can be distorted, based (once again) on your beliefs. An example might be “I feel this way, and I know it’s wrong, why can’t I stop feeling this way?” The belief that an emotion is right or wrong is a distortion. Emotions aren’t right or wrong, they just are. So what is the belief that you hold which tells you that it’s wrong to feel that way?"

"Your primary mission for being here is “the creation and the expression of WHO YOU REALLY ARE.” according to Conversations with God.

Everything we do is an opportunity to decide who we are or who we are not in relation to other people. Those beliefs that we are projecting out onto others are really beliefs that we have about ourselves. In that action, we are making a statement about who we are. 

When we become self-aware, we are able to more consciously decide who we are by getting rid of those unserving beliefs that aren’t really us."

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

This Little Light of Mine, I'm Going To Let It Shine

When I was a young girl, we would sing a little song in Sabbath school (we went to church on Saturday) called "This Little Light of Mine". I'm sure lots of us growing up in religious households remember singing this song. I loved this little song and would happily sing it with the hand movements. I didn't really understand what it meant then, but I think I finally understand what it means now.

I was gifted (thank you, Carol) a reading with Jeannie Barnes who communicates with your guardian angel. Lina, my guardian angel, suggested that I read the book Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian Weiss. I ordered the book and got through it fairly quickly. I enjoyed and liked that the information there pretty much confirmed some of the conclusions I had already come to.

One of the things the Masters told Brian through Catherine was that we shouldn't stay only with people who are of our own vibrational frequency, that we need to interact with those who are very different and be willing to share what we have learned with others. I don't think they mean we are meant to go out and "witness" to others in the way I was taught to within the church I grew up in. I don't think it is about being preachy, but simply about not hiding out and choosing only to talk with those about what you believe with others who already share similar beliefs. I think we are meant to go out and share openly and without fear what we have learned when it comes up in conversation. If we are too scared to share what we have learned with others for fear of what they will think of us, those seeds will never be planted that could have been.

For the most part, I have stuck with people who I know have a leaning towards the woo-woo side of life. I've tried to talk to my "normal" friends about some of this and the uncomfortableness becomes thick. It is like trying to play two square with someone only the other person never bounces the ball back and it just stops. Many of us who have had this experience learn to just not talk about "these things" with muggles because they just don't get it and we go back to our closets and pretend to be like them and try to not mention it with them again. 

It was only recently when I ventured out on the request of my guides and started posting in a public arena with a large muggle audience. I was pretty worried people there would give me all kinds of grief and I braced myself for the response I might get. I was really surprised that no one tried to tear me apart or tell me that I was crazy.  I then remembered a dream I had had about leaving my tiny school for a huge university classroom and it dawned on me that I was actually now doing what my dream had showed me would happen.

Dream journal entry:

April 16, 2014 I went to Mari's apartment and she had a roommate and she was discussing her landlord and what a dick he was about the rent. I was waiting for her to get ready. I think we had of some sort but it was a small class not part of a college or trade school. Mari had this neighbor friend stop by...a blonde dude and he was 30ish, I think. And as we were all leaving the apartment together...I end up in his car with him and he is driving to his class that is actually part of a big university. I remember saying to him, "How did I wind up here? Mari and I were supposed be going to class together. I totally have no idea how I wound up here. I must have spaced. I hope she doesn't worry about me." There was a song he started singing to me. It was a Sarah McLachlan song and the title was The Path of Thorns. It was weird to me that a dude was singing a Sarah song. hahaha I remember thinking it was weird he was singing that song because I had just listened to that album recently.  It was the chorus that was being sung:

In the terms of endearment 
In the terms of the life that you love 
In the terms of the years that pass you by 
In the terms of the reasons why

Well he keeps driving and it feels like we were having a conversation or something...I don't remember what about. We wind up at his very large classroom and I go in with him and wait with him feeling a little awkward like I don't belong. I never went to a big college so it felt a little intimidating, but I stayed with him because I liked his company. I woke up before class started. 

Another thing that Brian's book confirmed for me was that we all are both teacher and student...always. I don't want to be anyone's guru or go-to person. Shit man, I am still learning too and chances are pretty good you have just as much to teach me as I have to teach you. I never want to be someone who feels like I know it all and have nothing to learn from others. That is not what this experience is about. I have always believed that we are caterpillars and we are feeding on knowledge and experience. 

Lately I have had a voracious appetite for all things spiritual and metaphysical. Of course, one needs to also have discernment and listen to their own inner compass. Go inside and ask yourself, "How does this information feel?" There is a LOT I have read and discarded quickly. There is some that I believe most of and take what feels true and leave the bits that don't resonate or feel complete.

It is easy to share what I have learned here where the audience is small and mostly confined to friends and others who already have a leaning in the same direction as I do spiritually speaking. The challenge is for me and all of you to step outside of our comfort zones and closets and live and speak our truth. I know the fear of ridicule all too well, but if we really want to call ourselves "light workers," we have to actually start sharing our light in the darker and less safe places when an opportunity arises.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Animal Totems and Messages From Our Guides

Akita mani yo!
Lakota for "observe everything as you go."
Messages are around us all the time. We need only to pay attention to see them. Messages come to us as animals, insects, cloud formations, recurring numbers, colors, signs, syncs, songs and dreams. Open your eyes and pay attention. What message is the Universe trying to convey to you today?

I posted the above on my Facebook timeline recently along with the same photo. It is a motto I try to live by. I learned the Native American phrase in my 20s when I took a short course about Native American Spirituality. I loved the saying and never forgot it. I didn't realize then that I would become someone looking up animal totems every time an animal out in nature crosses my path. Not only am I looking up my own messages for myself, I am posting the meanings to other people's animal/insect photos. lol

Just today guitarist Nuno Bettencourt posted on his Instagram page photos of a praying mantis that joined him on stage with Rhianna. I can't help myself. The meaning of the totem seemed to fit how hectic his life has been. He has just finished touring with Extreme and had been doing 6 big gigs with Rhianna and Eminem. The mantis was telling him it was time to slow down and go within.
Sum 41 front man's mum posted a frog she saw. Again, the opportunity to give her Frog's message couldn't be passed up.

Today I heard a bird call I had never heard before. (click on the third one down titled "peough (red-shafted)" to hear the call I heard. ) It was loud so, of course, I had to go look to see who was calling to me. It was a male Red-shafted Northern Flicker. He was quite a pretty bird and one I had never seen before in the 8 years I have lived in Oregon. A Flicker is a type of woodpecker and I could have settled for the meaning of just a simple woodpecker, but he was special. I wanted to understand what his specific message was for me. Thankfully some people out there already did my work for me, but should you come across an animal you don't know the meaning for, a way to seek out what they have to teach is to learn about their habits and what makes them unique. Flickers spend a lot of time on the ground unlike traditional woodpeckers. There are some interesting Native American tales about the Flicker and how he got his color. The two sites I linked above had some interesting information about Northern Flicker Totems.

The other day I found a perfect blue feather in my back yard. And, yes, my back yard has more clover than grass and the local bees like it that way. lol I knew the feather was likely from a scrub jay because that is the variety I have seen before that would fit the color. I have also seen a Stellar's Jay, but the one I saw in the back yard had a lot more black than the one pictured here.

I collect these gifts and say a silent "thank you" and then discover what their message is. With the blue color, you can interpret it as having to do with the throat chakra which is all about communication. I sometimes look up the symbolism of the colors as well as the chakra meaning. One of my favorite people who talks about the meaning of colors is Elizabeth Harper. She does a Colorscope forecast every week and I have learned a lot from her weekly videos. One day I saw two red vehicles run red lights and then later in my Facebook feed, saw a theme of giraffes and took them to be a message for me.  The red light runners combined with the giraffes was a message about taking a risk and sticking my neck out. I am not a big risk taker and my guides were telling me it was time to take some risks.

Let's talk about numbers. Numbers are everywhere and when you suddenly start noticing a number showing up for you over and over again, pay attention and find out what they are trying to tell you. I once had the number 333 turn up 3 times in a two hour period of time during a walk. There are tons of numerology sites out there, but my "go to" site seems to be the Sacred Scribes site.  While a lot of the "angel messages" sound the same, they do speak of the numbers' individual meanings and that is really the important part because that is where you will be able to get a clearer idea of the number message.  When I see 5 repeatedly, automatically I think "change".  The number 9 is about completion and the end of a cycle. The number 6 speaks to me of family. As you read the number messages, you start to get a feel for what each number represents.

There are so many ways to get messages from our guides and loved ones on the other side. When you start paying attention, you suddenly realize how much they communicate with us on a regular basis. There are no coincidences. Once you understand that, you can stop explaining things away as "just a coincidence". Look around. What message is the Universe trying to convey to you?

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Walk-ins, Soul Family, and Soul Missions

Dolphin Pod - Photographer Unknown
I was having a conversation with my friend, Teresa, who is both gifted and knowledgeable.  I was picking her brain a bit about the topic of walk-ins.  I wanted to know how a walk-in finds their people, their soul family.  I wanted to know how we could better help a walk-in remember who they really are and thus reach the people they were meant to reach to carry out the soul mission that they came here to complete.  Her information was so beautiful that I asked her if I could use it for a blog and use her name.  I was pleased that she agreed.

My soul sister was the first to find me.  She is not a walk-in.  Next, one of my soul brothers somehow found me online and he is a walk-in.  A series of connections led him to contacting me and we both realized the truth about our connection fairly quickly.  He is still in the process of remembering in bits and pieces.

Teresa's wonderful information:

You can read Teresa's blog and contact her here:
If you want to follow her on Facebook, you can "like" her page here:

In an effort to not make the information hard to read, I only included Teresa's side of the dialogue.  It was just too good not to want to save it all in one place.

"Walk-ins have specific purposes."

Well the tough thing is that whether you have a soul mate energy in one person or another and they are a walk-in, typically the walk in has a specific purpose for the exchange and coming in."

To be granted special permissions like walking in, there would have to be pretty big reasons and they would be weighed and considered."

Walk-in's usually involve a process so as not to shock the body/brain/systems"

Some will even cohabitate as they match the frequencies of the body.  You don't have to be ill to have a walk in.  The process as to the integration of the walk in with the mind/body of the vessel varies."

"When it comes to what you can do to help facilitate the process really depends.  So much of it relies on the walk-ins level and experience with energy integration and reintegration.  In addition to any energy conflicts or soul conflicts of the soul leaving, etc."

"It very well could have been pre-planned. Doesn't mean it would be any easier for the transition.  So much of it relies on the walk-ins experience.  It's a much more complex process than a birthing. Which is one reason we go through a birthing process to begin with."

"When it comes to walk ins, again so much of it is reliant on their experience and knowledge.  So if you all are advanced energy healers then collectively you could tune in to his energy signature and help anchor him down into his vessel."

"Outside of what I mentioned when it comes to you all helping to anchor his energy signature and coding into his vessel on this plane, it's totally going to rely on him the rest of the way."

" (walking in) It's not an easy thing. Again, majority lies on the walk-ins shoulders. We can help encourage or nurture the signature to root on this level. Most of the time walk-ins have such a strong purpose and level of knowledge they typically can integrate in a number of months or even a year."

"They'll have a period of sifting through the thoughts, memories, etc. if they didn't cohabitate initially or work with the original soul."

"Remember time is simply an illusion.  There can be a lot of reason for a wait.  In the meantime work with the walk-ins that have awakened.  The more you raise your vibrations and express your authentic selves it will also nurture and call to him.  It's easy for us to want to rush the process but only he would know what he has to sort through with the integration."

"again... call out your energies collectively with your own vibrations and also put the call out there with his signature. Create the harmony of the blend."

Like if you're all part of the same soul group as most soul mates are there is a frequency, a collective hum that is the signature of your pod.  Other groups have their own signature like if you were to think of a phone one else has the same exact phone number."

"That number is the direct number to your office or pod. Really the numbers are like representatives of musical notes.  The music harmony as I can best describe it is made of your energies combined. Layered on top of the original melody or signature."

"(you call out with) Intention.  You have to first connect with it yourselves within."

"Recognize it and anchor it in, which it's already anchored, but outline it and intensify it's energy.  The more energy and intention is like turning the volume up.  Others can hear it.  But unless someone feels that song as home, they won't really care.  But his energy being part of that group and signature will be drawn to it and it will intensify the song within and help add to the melody."

"You know how you can hear a song and it literally moves through every fiber of your being and can give you goosebumps?"

"That's what your intention is. You're all like an individual speaker playing the foundation melody of your groups signature. Coding... Each "speaker" has their own melody layered on top of the foundation melody. When two "Speakers" meet and connect and turn on... then you start to create the harmony."

I guess my pod and I need to put out a call to find the others so they can find us and help us on our soul mission.  While I am not entirely sure what the group mission is yet, I do know that my personal mission is to be an energy healer.  Jeannie Barnes and others have all told me the same thing....that I am meant to be an energy healer.  Jeannie told me that I will come to healing gradually and naturally within the next couple years.

There are differences in types of walk-ins.  Sometimes it is a soul braid where the soul that walks in kind of braids with the existing soul.  A full soul exchange is where the original soul steps out and the new one walks in and takes over.  Sometimes a soul only walks in for a short time to complete a specific task.  You can do a search on these terms to find our more about both.  THIS is my previous blog post about this subject.

Here are some sites I found interesting and helpful:

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Red Hot Chili Peppers Encounters and More On Dreams

Photo By Mark Seliger - 1992
Years ago I dated someone briefly who is friends with the band, Red Hot Chili Peppers.  I had moved to Portland, Oregon for the first time and didn't really know anyone here.  When he called and later visited, he was a familiar face that I welcomed.  One particular weekend he was supposed to be house sitting for Flea and he came to visit me.  At that point I kind of knew that I didn't really want to see him anymore and tried to find all kinds of ways to discourage him from coming up.  But he insisted and flew up anyway.  That was the last weekend I ever talked to him.

Fast forward to my phone bill arriving and there was this California number that kept showing up on my bill and I knew it wasn't my best friend's number.  I suspected it was my roommate's calls, but I wasn't sure.  When I asked her, she said it wasn't anyone she knew.  I wasn't convinced and decided to call the number to find out who was on the other end.  I got an answering machine with the cutest message ever.  I think it was both Flea and his little daughter, Clara, on the message which let me know immediately who had made the calls to this number.  I was so tickled by the cute message that I called the number back to let my roommate hear it.  She suddenly gets this freaked out look on her face and hands me the phone as though it were a hot potato. lol  Flea had answered the phone that time and I was like, "Hi, this number showed up on my phone bill and I just wanted to find out who had made the call by finding out whose number this was."  I went on to reveal that I was in Portland, Oregon and Flea was hilarious.  He completely lied and said he had never been to Portland, Oregon.  He was in the movie My Own Private Idaho which was filmed in Portland, so I knew that was a bold faced lie.  I said to him, "I'm not saying YOU were ever here.  I am saying someone you know was here and was at my house and called your number and I am trying to find the appropriate person to charge for the calls."  I then said, "Okay, let me just ask you this.  Do you know blah blah blah?"  And he said he did.  I said, "Okay, thanks!  Have a good day!" and hung up.  My roommate and I laughed about it.

I have never dreamed about RHCP before, but night before last I had a dream that involved them.  I would actually say it was closer to a nightmare because when I woke from it, my heart racing and I was relieved to be awake and not in the crazy ass dream.  I will spare you the twisted details of the other parts and only share the bit that relates to RHCP:

So we are still in this apartment only now there is this big room attached that you take stairs down to get to. As is turns out, they hold events there and it looked like they were getting ready to hold an event. I see a little girl a little older than Inara running around and think she must be with the people that are part of the event. Inara, of course, makes a B-line for the girl and they start playing together. As it turns out, the event that is happening is the Red Hot Chili Peppers are doing a Q and A panel/meet and greet sort of thing. I see flea talking to his daughter who was playing with my daughter and I think, that is curious, he must have had a second daughter much later because I know Clara must be an adult by now. I think briefly that I hope blah blah blah doesn't turn up there. The crappy part was in order to get to this event, a lot of people were going through our apartment. There was our front door and then our back door was attached to this large room where the event was being held. I didn't like all these people traipsing through and then some were lingering IN our apartment. At one point I saw high school aged kids dressed in costumes of fairytale characters. They were beautiful and elaborate costumes and I asked why they were dressed that way and one person said that they were going to a fairytale themed costume party. I saw more of them laughing and walking down through a shallow creek. And when the event ended, it got worse with people leaving through our place. I got really angry and physically showed people out the front door and locked it and then I tried locking the back door but people were pissed that they would have to go around and they actually tried to break the door open. I had a confrontation with one chick and basically threw her down the stairs. I closed a secondary door and bolted it shut and then I see a motorcycle rider driving and come up to obstacles my mom, I think, put in the road to keep them from passing through and he spins horribly out of control. He gets up but his arm is mangled and then because of his bike in the road more accidents occur and he gets hit by an oncoming car. Another motorcycle rider crashes and spills his bike. Chaos was ensuing and I think I mentioned to mom that they were going to be pissed about the obstacles she put in the road. And then I open a door and I think I am still in my apartment but it's not. And there were all these people. And I was still trying to keep people out of my apartment and cursing at people and apparently one of the people I said something to was like the owner of the building and she says to me, "oh you are really going to regret saying that to me." and that was when I looked around the room and was like, this isn't my apartment, and thought, what is this place? It was beautiful. It looked expensive with stained glass and chandeliers and it seemed like there were crystals lining the walls. It seemed to be some kind of central operations place.

I did a search online to see if Flea really does have a second daughter who was close to Inara's age and he DOES!!! Her name is Sunny and she was born in October 2005.  Inara was born in June 2008. And OMG the face I saw was actually Sunny's face!!! I am floored. So strange.

I know what the bits about all the people was pushing people away and putting obstacles in the path to prevent people from being in my personal space. lol  But the part where I actually see Flea's real daughter who I knew nothing about until after searching online is very perplexing.  I have no idea what it means or why I would dream about RHCP or Flea's young daughter.  I like the music of RHCP and saw them live back in the day before they were famous, but I am not the sort of person to know every single little detail about a band's members.  I find it is far better to know less personal details about a band if you want to continue to appreciate their music. lol  I guess I will just have to wait and see if it becomes clear why I dreamed about Flea and Sunny.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Dreams, Oracles, Astral Projection, Lucid Dreaming

Naoto Hattori - Genetic Creator
I have always had lots of dreams.  The truth is, many of my early dreams I considered nightmares.  It got to the point where I just didn't want to sleep anymore because of where I would end up in my sleep.  Back then I had no idea what sleep paralysis was and it scared the shit out of me.  I didn't know what lucid dreaming was either.  Had I had someone to explain what some of this stuff was, perhaps I wouldn't have fought it and thought it so awful.  Let's get a few definitions out of the way for those who might come here and say, "Well what is lucid dreaming?  What is astral projection?  What is sleep paralysis?"

Sleep Paralysis : a complete temporary paralysis occurring in connection with sleep and especially upon waking

Lucid Dreaming
: a dream state in which one is conscious enough to recognize that one is in the dream state and which stays in one's memory

Astral Projection
: the act of separating the astral body (spirit or consciousness) from the physical body and its journey into the universe

:  a person (as a priestess of ancient Greece) through whom a deity is believed to speak
b :  a shrine in which a deity reveals hidden knowledge or the divine purpose through such a person
c :  an answer or decision given by an oracle
a :  a person giving wise or authoritative decisions or opinions
b :  an authoritative or wise expression or answer

I really became addicted to coffee back in my late teens when I was trying to sleep as little as possible because I didn't want to dream.  I feared sleep.  I stayed awake as much as possible.  I would wake inside of a dream.  I could hear everything that was happening in the room but I could do nothing to wake my body.  I would scream inside my head, "WAKE UP!!!" and yet I couldn't wake no matter how hard I tried.  At times people would say they heard me whimpering in my sleep and I told them if they hear that in the future to please wake me up because chances are good I am trying to wake up but can't.  Back then I was still very brainwashed in my rigid christian beliefs, so I actually believed that whatever was happening to me was sinister and evil.  Again, I wish I had someone to help me understand so that I could take advantage of that gift I was given instead of being afraid of it and trying to run from it.

Fast forward to now, I understand so much more.  I understand what lucid dreaming is and have actually tried to deliberately induce astral projection and lucid dreaming.  It doesn't come easily to me now like it used to when I was younger and trying to fight it.

Many nights I have lots of dreams.  A fourth of the time, they are just disjointed musings of my subconscious mind.  But the other three-fourths of the time they are VERY meaningful.  Those dreams I have tried to record in a journal.  Some of the meaningful dreams are prophetic.  Some of them are warnings like the time I dreamed of my younger brother rolling his car and dying.  I told him of my concerns for his well being.  His girlfriend at the time had a similar dream and also warned him.  I begged him to wear his seat belt at least for the next week as normally he refused to wear one.  Later that week he rolled his car and his life was spared because he took our warnings seriously and wore a seat belt.  Some of my other dreams tell me about my own future and are guidance. actually many times, I have visitations from spirits in my dreams giving me messages or just having a lovely interaction with me.  Last night was filled with dreams and messages and a lovely visitation from a certain being I have been missing dearly.  This time he appeared as a beautiful Asian man with long hair.  Thanks, Kenji, for that visual in your old photo. lol  It definitely wasn't you though because he had a different face and was a musician.  I could smell his hair and commented on how it smelled nice.  I could feel his touch and his lips on mine.  When you touch and smell or taste in dreams, it is a pretty good indicator that it is no ordinary dream...that you are, in fact, in the astral having a very real experience outside of the body.

You see, what many people don't understand is that when we sleep, the majority of us leave our bodies and go off to play.  What you think is "just a dream" could be an actual experience.  Sometimes those experiences are created to guide us.  Sometimes they are created just because we miss someone and we have sought each other out to spend time with each other while in the astral.  Some people do incredible work while their body sleeps.  Apparently I have visited other people's dreams but often have no memory of it.  Some people only hover just above their bodies and others take off on wonderful adventures.  I have managed to astral project on purpose, but I can't seem to maintain it for very long.  It feels like seconds.  I can get to that familiar vibratory state and then feel the lift of my spirit out of my body, but often my human thinking gets in the way and I get sucked back into my body and wake.

So next time you have a dream, ask yourself what meaning it has to you and your life.  Ask yourself if it was really "just a dream".  Chances are pretty good that it has significant meaning to you and huge clues and advice for your life.  Maybe consider starting a dream journal and looking back now and then to understand what the "dreams" might be trying to show you.  And if you come across someone who loves you and feels real...hug them close and enjoy the moment.